urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eternalfate eternalfate eternalfate 2005-02-14T07:21:16Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eternalfate:1164 2005-02-14T07:21:16Z 2005-02-14T07:21:16Z the early november(ten) VALENTINES DAY..... WTF? no big deal.. sure its the same as every other fuckin day.. but hey i guess people who want to feel loved asked for this horrible holiday... so i've applied for a job at mcdonalds.. downtown wyandotte.. and i think i got it.. the lady said that she'll call me monday.. and then she was like umm we'll start callin people monday... the funny thing is.. is i think the manager liked me... i was nice and i did smile alot... so i've lost like 40LBS.. and i still fat as hell.. the only thing i've ate in like 5 days have been, a half a small slice of nasty pizza, a mcChicken and some fries, some chips @ Nikki's, and a bite of shelly's oreo shake... so saturday(2/12/05)... i went to PRD.. or for some people Punk Rock Denny's... well it was pretty gay.. except that i got to chill and sit with shellbell and jess... why did they decide to go to denny's? well the one on sibly road? beats me.. but i think its got something to do with shelly and kim goin last week.. but anyways we get there and theres these scene kids from my school.. i was like ok.. this isnt fun.. because there all fashion core bitch's.. well alot of them can be nice.. but Ian Stephens is the worst.. i ono hes like this increatable leach that sticks to you and sucks you of everything you got.. so he makes sure he gets his... hmmm.. but anyways i did have a nice time.. i just hate the fact that people talk about ppl behind their backs and then asks for things... i juss gave him that cigarette so he would leave me alone... because he makes me sick to my stomache... anyways... 20 LBS to go till i get to vegas.. lol.. well i wanna be that thin.. lol.. so wish me luck.. and ummmm note to self... I need REhab.... and i DONT need Food... oh yeah, one more thing my parents are dirt poor so i got the pell grant.. basically thats a grant from the government saying "Hey your parents are dirt poor" "and we feel hella sorry for you" "so were gonna give this money to you cuz you cant get any money anywhere else"..... Bush fucked up the economy, thats why were poor... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eternalfate:948 2005-01-16T15:06:40Z 2005-01-16T15:06:40Z my chemical romance.. so im sittin here... and i begain to think... i asked myself this: "will anyone even miss me while im gone?" and i came to the answer.. and its prolly not.. but hey movin to vegas may or not be the best move i'll ever make in my life.. but hey who knows anymore.. life is juss gay i guess.. i guess i'll miss a whole lot of ppl.. but movin out being on my own.. maybe i'll meet some new ppl.. creat new friendships.. which i totally doubt it.. but hey it could happen. so im chillen.. that reminds me i have to go back across the street that way i can do more laundry.. well at least im goin to get paid for it.. i told "grandma" that i didnt want money.. but she's a stubborn old lady... she wont take no for an answer.. its pretty said when she has to "hire" me, cuz her family (lives there and eats for nothing)wont do it.. it really discust me... i say napolin dynomite last night.. well this morning.. that movie is so funny.. the napoline guy kinda reminds me of my cuzin.. no names tho..hehe.. well im gonna go get ready to go back across the street.. even tho i dun wanna.. but i'll help grandma out in a heart beat.. ;) later gators :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eternalfate:512 2005-01-08T08:02:14Z 2005-01-08T08:02:14Z atreyu hemmm... sittin here with shell bell.. hehe.. tired as all hell.. so today i was finally allowed out of the house.. and my mom didnt freak.. hehe.. ummm.. so yeah.. GREAT NEWS.... im goin to VEGAS baby... lol.. well not cuz i can enjoy myself down there.. but to fuckin go to school.. but i guess thats better then sittin here boring ol' dotte.. hehe.. ummm.. yeah well things have been goin great i guess.. cuz im a lozer and nothing good ever happens.. but i got accepted by Le Cordon Bleu in Las Vegas, Nevada! hehe.. so come june.. im so out.. hehe.. umm by by WyanDOTTE! hehe.. hmm i've noticed that i say hehe way to much.. umm so i ono.. didnt do much today. except i went to kims.. and well i kinda yelled at her.. but i think it was justified.. cuz it is true that she did quit callin me when her cousin alex and her friend sharee came into the picture. she tried sayin im still her bestfriend or wutava.. but diffently doesnt seem that way... i guess cuz i wish things were like they used to be.. but so far no luck.. i ono maybe time will do its trick.. i really gonna miss everyone when i move.. but i think it about time i got out on my own... and lived life in the real world. my mom doesnt want me to go.. but im goin anyways.. juss as long as i can get some financial aid... but hmmm im prolly gonna go to bed.. so later ya'll.... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:eternalfate:496 2005-01-03T10:58:34Z 2005-01-03T10:58:34Z Senses Fail (Let it unfold you) SO MADE A NEW LIVE JOURNAL ACCOUNT... i like this one much better... so well everyone is prolly wondering what i did New Years Eve... well i was at amandas cuz i stayed the night, but i came home at like 3... then i layed around for a while, got in the shower... and then went to crissys... everything was going well until we started to drink. crissy got pissed at muh brother, so him and his friends left.. even tho i love crissy to death she kept tellin me she was gonna kick my brothers ass.. and if you kno me and jeff, you know were pretty friggin close.. well things were great but we're drunks.. and me being bi-polar doesnt help.. well she pissed me off, i started to cry.. i cut my self, if you didnt kno im a big self mutilator.. then obveiously you dont know me... anyways Crissy took the knife and cut her self... wait what was i thinking? she didnt cut herself she tore herself open.. so i got scared and called 911.. the first time i gave them the wrong address... cuz i didnt kno it.. even tho i've been there like a houndred times over the last 6 months.. but anyways the second time i called, i had to fight with her.. i found her addy on a some mail addressed to her mom.. so yeah i got ahold of the police. and you kno how when your drunk you really dont listen to anyone? well my lil sis was yellin at me in the back ground.. tellin me we had her a ride to the hospital but i continued with the call anyways.. in a way it was a good thing.. because we would of juss showed up at the hospital and told them that she cut herself on a can.. but i kno she might read this.. but its the truth im glad i did call 911.. because i realized that she had a problem... sure we all have problems, but hers are out of her control.. well now she's off gettin help finally... and im grounded for 3 months.. but i'll get outta it... and i have to go to court in feburary.. so wish me luck.. i still have no idea what to tell the judge.. all i can hope is that he'll take into concideration that i'm a senior in highschool, and i get good grades... hmmm well other then that... i was accepted to SchoolCraft College.. no big deal, because it's kinda like a community college right? Wrong im glad with the way the first 2 years of highschool i even got into a semi community college.. but hey, what more can i ask for.. they do have the bed Culinary Arts program in michigan.. so i guess im lucky i'm goin there.. now that i know something about what college im goin to... all i need is a job now.. because im so out of here when i turn 18! anyways i gotta get ready for school.. even tho i havent been to bed yet.. but theres not much i can do about it.. anyways im outtie...